In my daughters eyes

In my daughter’s eyes – Martina McBride 

In my daughter’s eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter’s eyes

In my daughter’s eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter’s eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It’s hangin’ on when your heart
has had enough
It’s giving more when you feel like giving up
I’ve seen the light
It’s in my daughter’s eyes

In my daughter’s eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she’ll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I’m gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I’ll be there
In my daughter’s eyes

Back in Heidi land

I did it! I managed to go back to South Africa and come home safe and sound, there was no one waiting for me at customs to arrest me and returning back to Austria was no problem at all, seems all that freaking out and panic attacking was all for nothing.

It was really great being back for a visit, totally awesome seeing my Mom and sisters and the rest of the family, so happy to see good friends and the food was just so yummy.

It just sucked that the time there was so short, it flew by and I didn’t get a chance to see more than half of the people I wanted to see and do half the stuff I wanted to do, but that’s ok, there is always next time. 

The worst part about visiting is that eventually you have to say goodbye and that sucks, I miss everyone so much already, I missed them the second that I left, it is so cool that we can still all communicate via the web and of course the telephone, all I need now is my very own Blackberry!

I am so thankful for the friends and family that I have, you are all the sunshine in my life and help make it a beautiful day, love you lots and lots and miss you so much xoxoxoxo

Take it back

If I had a time travel machine and could go back to the past would I change anything? 

I use to think, No, I would never change anything in my life because everything that has happend in my life, good or bad is what makes me the person that I am today.  Any mistakes made are good because they are life lessons, I have learn’t from them, right?

Well, I think it’s rubbish, I think we say stuff like that to make ourselves feel better about any failures that we have had, if I could go back I would definately undo every stupid thing that I have ever done or said and only keep the good.  We are all taught morals and values, what is good or bad, who is nice or mean and what is fake or real, it is just unfortunate that we are stupid enough to trust people or believe the choices that we make are the right ones just because something  looks shiny and sparkly.

If I could there are so many decisions and choices that I would change, so many things that I would never say and so much more that I would do.

The reality is there is no time machine, what’s done is done and the past can never be changed, but there is still today and tomorrow all I can do is try and be the best that I can be and make choices that I can be proud of.